It has been almost two months since I last wrote on my blog site. I returned to substitute teaching. There have been benefits with this decision. As an inexperienced writer, I struggled to make a career of my writing. Someday, I will publish some of my writing. I still carry the dream. 

The past couple of months have been a struggle for me with my depression. Sometimes I write more or less. The sunlight has been limited and activities less. During my days, I try and push myself to do more. Continue to “get out” and walk with my dog. Prepare meals and baked goods to share with friends and family. Stay in contact with friends and family; however, trying to not sound too needy.

I reach out more to my doctors and therapist. Today we briefly discussed not making New Year’s Resolutions. It is good to think positive and make improvements, but why do we feel we need to make drastic changes. We should honor and love ourselves and not feel like what we are currently doing is necessarily bad or wrong. Resolutions usually fail and make us feel worse.

Gradual changes and being gentle with our words and actions are more beneficial. I have written about finding my balance and we all are searching for this in our lives. I will get through this time and hope to write more often in my journals or the blog. I feel more aware with my thoughts, emotions and dreams when I write. 

The rest of the week I return to substitute teaching and I feel good about this time.