A card on my desks reads, “You Are Not Alone in This.” This message often runs through my mind as I go through my life journey. I am told God is always there for me. I believe this most of the time; however, most activities I participate in, I am “alone.”

A mix of emotions fill me as I drive short day trips. It is exciting to be independent and going places. Then mistakes of bad relationships with men creep in my mind. I tell my mind to stop going down these roads and focus on how far I have healed. Then I obsess over a guy I really liked, but it was nothing more than a friendship. I feel like a teenage girl all over again.

My dreams of a good marriage or relationship seem hopeless. I share too much of myself and give too much to the other. I have prayed not to be alone and have had visions of the kind of man I want to be with. Nothing changes –just another day and night pass by.

I keep moving ahead with my family, friends and dog. I search for the goodness of being single.

Today, I saw a small plane fly over the church I attended. Immediately, I thought of getting away in the near future. Yes, move on.